Weigh in 2 - May 26th

So time came for weigh in number two. I already knew I had screwed up and that it was going to be bad. I knew I was already out of ketosis (we monitor this at home with keto stix). I begrudgingly stepped onto the scale that I knew would betray what I had done, but I had decided from the get go to be honest with them and charted what I ate. If I can't be honest with myself and them I knew I wasn't going to make any progress. I climbed on and weighed 174.6 lbs. I had gone down, but not the normal number for someone on week one of the program. My fat mass went from 44.8% down to 42.7% and my BMI went down to 30.9. That still put me into the obese category. I talked with the doctor and the nutritionalist and they both said I at least did the right thing and got right back on the program. The doctor also had my blood test results back. My bad cholesterol was too high, my good cholesterol was too low and I was at a 90% risk for a heart attack. I just wanted to cry. How could I let my body get into that bad of shape? I needed to keep doing what I was doing for my health so that I could be there to watch my children grow up. I can't afford not to do this. I got my injections for the week and went home to keep plugging away.